kick the nic!

my mind wants to vent but there is nothing that it contains to say. maybe it is empty today. maybe not, I feel something coming.

so I have decided once again to drop the mindless habit of inhaling the byproducts of burning tobacco. i have been chewing on the cheap Walgreen's flavorless nicotine gum for 3 days without a single desire for those little white cylindrical devices. unfortunately it tastes like pure disgust, but I must say it is totally worth not smelling like pure disgust and not knowing it.

such a strange apparatus is the nose and its counterpart the olfactory cortex. as for anyone that may have once been a smoker and quit for any period of time, you know this phenomena. when the brain is constantly bombarded by the same olfactory signals, it grows a tolerance to alerting you of the smell. after only a short period of time you no longer have the ability to percieve that specific chemical's 'smell tag'. such an amazing phenomena, yet dangerous if you stink and don't know it.

so back to the smoking of cigarettes. i had a discussion with a roommate recently about my quitting. under his circumstance, he smokes occasionally and is not addicted to the nicotine. how absurd is it to do something that is terribly distasteful, unhealthy, and can provide you with a slow and painful death, if you are not in an addictive state. now maybe he just does not realize he is addicted, but unlikely as he has never ritually smoked as I do. why people, do you smoke at no benefit whatsoever to yourself?! of course, there was a time when I smoke unnecessarily but I blame it on youth and ignorance. as an adult, you should know better!

smoking really upsets me! i need something to calm my nerves. i'm gonna go chew some gum.