Monday, December 15, 2008

Personality - ISTJ

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50
100
%
Openness
74%
Conscientiousness
81%
Extraversion
55%
Agreeableness
73%
Neuroticism
38%


Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging

ISTJs thrive on organisation. They keep their lives and environments well-regulated. They bring painstaking attention to detail in their work and will not rest until satisfied with a job well done. ISTJs are faithful, logical, organized, sensible, and earnest traditionalists. They earn success by thoroughness and dependability. Shutting out distractions, they take a practical, logical approach to their endeavors. Realistic and responsible, they work steadily toward their goals. They enjoy creating order in both their professional and personal lives. ISTJs are persons of thoughts and (sometimes) emotions. They prefer dealing with the present and factual, using various options to make decisions.

Openness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 54% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is aware of their feelings but doesn't get carried away with their imagination either. You might say that you embrace change when it is necessary while still resisting it when you think it is not, and that beauty is important to you, but it's not everything.

Reflective question: When do you think that tradition is important, and when is it time for change?

Conscientiousness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 88.5% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is a perfectionist. From your responses it appears that you prefer to plan everything to the last detail, which has consequently led to you being very successful and extremely reliable. From your responses it appears that more than most you enjoy seeing your long-term plans come to fruition.

Reflective question: How does being in an untidy environment make you feel?

Extraversion

This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 34.5% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who prefers low-key social occasions, with a few close friends. You might say that it's not that you are afraid of large parties; they're just not that fun for you.

Reflective question: How do you like to spend your spare time?

Agreeableness

This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 72.6% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who people get along with easily. Your responses suggest that you would say you are considerate and friendly, and think that other people are generally honest and decent.

Reflective question: Is your co-operative preference ever taken advantage of by others?

Neuroticism (Emotional stability)

This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 38.2% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is calm and emotionally stable. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who is rarely bothered by things, and when they do get you down the feeling does not persist for very long.

Reflective question: When do your emotions (or lack of emotions) get in the way of good decision making?

Sunday, December 7, 2008

who am i?

who the hell am i these days?! when did i ever let go of just being myself. . .

when did i become so afraid of emotion, of wearing my heart on my sleeve, of letting people see my weaknesses, of being different. i carry so much anxiety at all times, just because someone might not like me for how i dress, how i look, or how much money i have. i look down on people on a regular basis to make myself feel like i am better, that i have progressed further, and that i am the "winner" of this game of life. some people fall for it. they fall for the show because they are just like me; they want to win. win what?! i really don't know. i guess winning is when you have proven yourself to be happier than everyone else around you. i am done pretending to be happier than you.

i don't care what anyone else thinks about who i am or what i do. i am me and i don't want to be anything else. i am a geek, i am an atheist, i usually hate fiction, i am obsessively clean and organized, i am passionate about science and technology, i am bored of my current job/career, i want to go back to school, i want to travel more, i want to bare my emotions, i want to be poor because i spent my money on experiences and education not alcohol and bar tabs. i want to make my own happiness.

we all just want to be happy and most of the time we don't know how, so we struggle with different approaches to life until we find one that works. i am done with this one and it is done with me. sometimes we get lucky enough to get a thorough glance at our inner clockworks, at our design flaws, all in one glorious moment of epiphany. it is both enlightenment and pure fear to be in that moment because you know you have to change. we don't stay there for long and oft forget it's significance with the passing of time. you have to make your changes quickly and with deliberation before you fall back into the same familiar, well beaten path of the past. why is change so frightening? we crave it so much with every passing day, but are so afraid to follow into the unknown. fuck it, i say. i want change, i want new, i want passion, i want to be happy . not happier than you; just as happy as i need to be.

if it's not working for you, don't be afraid to let go and just free fall into the unknown. it's all just one big adventure anyway and it sure as hell doesn't last long enough to waste on caution and stability.